School is finally out! So far, It's been okay. Its not that great. Last weekend I went to see the movie Cars. It was very cute! I am trying to lose some weight. I weigh 140 and I hate it. And I'm 5'3. Is that normal? I just don't want to become fat. I want to be 130 AT LEAST before the summer is over. Have any suggestions? A month ago, I found laxatives in our bathroom. I used the whole box. I did some research about them and I knew they caused damage to my body, but I couldn't stop. It was like a drug. You were addicted to it. So I took those for about a month. Then when they ran out, I needed more. So, I stole some from my grandmas house. She never knew. So a couple of weeks later, my mom found the box in my room. She took them away. After that I started to starve myself. I lost 17 pounds from that. I WANT TO LOSE MORE! But now, whenever I stand up to fast, I get so dizzy and fall down. Every bone in my body aches. But I won't eat. I don't want to. I will be fat again.

There is only 3 more days of school left! I am so excited! Tomorrow is when we get our yearbooks. I kinda forgot what my picture looked like. Also the whole 7th grade gets to go to the San Gabrieal Park for the whole day. It's this huge park in m town. It will be fun I'm sure. I might get to go to South Padre this summer with my dad. I have never been there but I love the beach. I got all of my grades and I PASSED THE TAKS! I was really scared that I might get held back and have to stay in the 7th grade again. But I would die if that happened. Only one more year untill I am in 9th grade. The only think I am scared about is being a freshman. I hope I get taller too! I have an average hieght: 5'2. I atleast want to grow 2 more inches this summer because all of the 8th graders are super tall! If I grow one more inch... I will be as tall as my mom. My mom is really short. Well... I think I gonna go run now.
Lacee♥
P.S. (I have new pictures of me in my gallery)

Okay...WOW!
A lot has happened to me.
1. My mom got married! I am so happy! My dad doesn't know yet... but I don't really care what he thinks. My stepdad is so awesome! He is funny and really nice.
2. I am finally doing better in school. This Saturday is my choir trip. We are going to Six Flags! I can't wait! I have had such a busy week.
3. We just started sex ed. It sucks now because the guys are in the class. It is really emmbarising.
4. THERE IS TOO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT!

This is all I can think about for now.

See Ya!
♥Lacee♥

I really want to know why it is so hard for people like us to get what we want. I know there is the saying "You can't always get what you want"... but, it's different this time. It's when I work so hard for being me this past couple of months. And then, I get this chance to do something that I've always wanted to do, and then I blow it. I wish I could rewind time and change what I said. I am not going to tell you what happened to me last night that was so amazing but... I really wish I could take back my awnser..."no". I don't think I will ever get this chance again. It made me feel so good that somebody accully wanted to do this. It felt like this person cared. Now, it's all I think about. I'm so stupid for saying no. Thats all I want to know...why? I could really use some support right now. I f you could leave a comment on any of my posts... that would be wonderful.

I am so confused. What would you do if your parents got a divorce, you had to start a new school, you had to make new friends, you really didn't feel like you belonged in your family, you pretty much did not want to ever be born?
Its weird... how I feel. I can't explain any of it. I wish I had the house to myself for one day. A day where I could figure stuff out and a day where I could be alone and think. But, like thats ever going to happen. I still feel like the other day. Or, like my other post. This town brings back bad memories. When my family was together and everything was perfect.