OMG! I have this huge crush! His name is Kyle! I wish I knew if he liked me! Hes so cute and he has blue eyes, blonde hair and... HES JUST SO CUTE! HES ON MY MIND 24/7A ND HE FLIRTS WITH ME 24/7! To tell you the truth... I have never had a boyfriend before. All of my friends have so... this sucks. Mabye I'm too ugly. WHATS WRONG WITH ME? UGH! I don't know. Everyone says im really shy. I dont want to be shy! How can I get someone to like me or WHAT DO I DO? I am pretty much screaming at my computer about my crush! You think I'm weird... right? I have never been so boy crazy!
THIS IS WHAT IS ON MY MIND: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhh!!!! I like him so much... I don't know what to do?

Today is so beautiful!The sun is out, and there is a breeze! I love it! Everything is so perfect! I wish I do not have to go to school tomorow. I still have stupid homework to do. Can you beilive it? They give us homework... ON THE WEEKEND! We have a life too. Sometimes I just want to slap them in the face and say:YOU IDOIT! IT IS THE WEEKEND! YOU DON'T HAVE ANY HOMEWORK! YOU GET TO HAVE FUN WHILE WE ARE STUCK IN THE HOUSE DOING STUPID WORK! I hate school. The only reason I wake up at 5:00 in the morning is to see my friends. I can't wait till I move out!

Hey!
I am finally getting my school stuff worked out and I have that make-up work done for once. I still have a lot to do tonight anyways.

I am reading another book now and I finished that novel Cut. It was a really good book! As you can see, I like to read! My Favorite author is Kevin Brooks. Candy, Lucas, Martin Pig, Kissing the Rain, and Blood Line are all of the novels he has written. Right now I am reading Kissing the Rain. I just started it and it seems pretty good! All I need to read is Blood Line, and then I will have read all of his books! They are very good and exciting; you should read some of them!
Love,
Lacee

Ahhhh! I was very sick on thursday and friday, but now, when I come back to school... I HAVE 10 STUPID PAGES OF HOMEWORK! It is way to much for me to do and way to much stress! It seems like everybody can keep up with every little singel thing they do! There grades are so perfect, their life is so perfect, and THEIR JUST SOO PERFECT! I really can't take this anymore! Bye... I HAVE TO GO DO HOMEWORK!

I am having a bad day again! I don't get it? One day, I am in this great mood and I say nothings going to bring me down, and then the next day I am crying like crazy and its all my fault. Everything is my fault. My dad left, I had to do something wrong? Or why else would he leave? What did ever do to him and for him to make me feel so bad now? Why am I this way? Why did I ever have to be born? Why did god have to bring me in this world? I hate this life of mine! I want to be confiedent in me and strong and happy. Why can't I feel so great like evryone else? Everybody is so happy and I can't enjoy life? If you think I'm some kind of drama queen, I'm not. These are my feelings and I have never felt so worse in my life. I really want to talk to my friends and family but something is holding me back and I am not sure what people would think about me. I think if I ever talked to someone, they would not understand me. Even my own mother. At school I try so hard to not think about this stuff and its hard to hold everything back in front of my friends.