School is finally out! So far, It's been okay. Its not that great. Last weekend I went to see the movie Cars. It was very cute! I am trying to lose some weight. I weigh 140 and I hate it. And I'm 5'3. Is that normal? I just don't want to become fat. I want to be 130 AT LEAST before the summer is over. Have any suggestions? A month ago, I found laxatives in our bathroom. I used the whole box. I did some research about them and I knew they caused damage to my body, but I couldn't stop. It was like a drug. You were addicted to it. So I took those for about a month. Then when they ran out, I needed more. So, I stole some from my grandmas house. She never knew. So a couple of weeks later, my mom found the box in my room. She took them away. After that I started to starve myself. I lost 17 pounds from that. I WANT TO LOSE MORE! But now, whenever I stand up to fast, I get so dizzy and fall down. Every bone in my body aches. But I won't eat. I don't want to. I will be fat again.