I really want to know why it is so hard for people like us to get what we want. I know there is the saying "You can't always get what you want"... but, it's different this time. It's when I work so hard for being me this past couple of months. And then, I get this chance to do something that I've always wanted to do, and then I blow it. I wish I could rewind time and change what I said. I am not going to tell you what happened to me last night that was so amazing but... I really wish I could take back my awnser..."no". I don't think I will ever get this chance again. It made me feel so good that somebody accully wanted to do this. It felt like this person cared. Now, it's all I think about. I'm so stupid for saying no. Thats all I want to know...why? I could really use some support right now. I f you could leave a comment on any of my posts... that would be wonderful.